Long story short... When I was somewhat younger I did some freelance work. Basically due to motivational problems I kind of sucked at it. I did what I could but depression and stuff got in the way. Eventually I ended up screwing up. Several jobs went on undone though I didn't receive money for work I didn't do and I'd often do some and then run out of gas. As in did some parts of the work, then didn't do the rest. Basically I didn't do good. I'm not proud of it and that's an understatement. I was a crappy freelancer and screwed up at least 3 jobs right there. Then came the big job screw up. I was contracted to do some work for someone. I kind of had a bad habit of over-extending and being unrealistic and undercharging so after a while I faced some severe burnout. Was almost done with the job but crashed completely. It was a job that I screwed up and due to financial reasons couldn't pay it back immediately. Fast forward a few years. I've gotten back on my feet. I'm not depressed. I'm not burned out. I'm actually fine. I started doing my work again but this time successfully. More successful than ever. Financially in a very very good spot with the potential of this becoming much much better. I went from the lowest tax bracket to the highest here and things could get pretty insane. I'm doing good. Good enough to pay back that debt, almost two years late, and apologize the best way I could because I realize how freakin' messed up that was that I inadvertently screwed that client (and more minorly screwed at least 3 more over a short time). Buuut I'm concerned about my sucky past. My position at the moment is fairly public. They don't know my real name yet but it'll be out there. Then it'll just be more public. I freelanced under my real name. I social media under that same name. I'm just afraid my past which I've tried to make up for will come bite me in the butt. I'd hate to think about these screw ups becoming public, especially to my family. Another concern is even though they've seemed to have accepted my apology I could be in a legally vulnerable area (seems selfish but it's real) about past jobs I've screwed up. I'm finally in a good spot in my life and it would suck to have that ruined by the past. I understand if those clients hate me and want to screw me up but... yeah... it would just suck and undo it (I'm not sure it would undo it but it would suck to become public knowledge). So I'm at an empass. I could go ahead anyways. Or I could attempt to skirt through it with my current "identity" which is basically an internet identity with a fake username . I'm not even sure how to play that out lol... Blerg the right thing to do is probably just go go ahead anyways. But I'd hate for the past to come back at me. I've tried to make restitution, pay back debt, apologize and accept responsibility. But I'm being a bit paranoid possibly and am just imagining going public and having some old clients pop in and tell them about my crappy past, as true as it is. :/ I've just never had to deal with negative response. I did great on my stuff outside of those. But yeah, it's ridiculous that I couldn't pay back one guy for almost two years. I'd hate for family to find out my screwups. I'm not sure what else I can do to make things right with the clients (who have so far not really suggested they'll go after me and have appeared to be understanding with my personal issues of the time, again I might simply be paranoid). And I hate thinking about it... Well this is kind of a business thing! Did any of you have a crappy past and come back? Did you have a public face (internet, whatever)? Did it bite you in the bum after you recovered from whatever personal problems?